Dear Readers,
I'm so happy to see you. Listen, I will be brief...yeah right...I was just remarking to my Dear Boi that I read/saw something about people accumulating emotions in a backpack. You carry this backpack throughout your whole life and every now and then you need to unload it. I think where people make the mistake is where or upon whom you unload it. So....I have this backpack and if you have been reading you know so much about it. I have new ish in the backpack but instead of unloading it on you, I am going to find a safe place to drop it. You see, I am quite used to others unloading all their past frustrations and aggravations (sound similar but no where near the same emotions) on me. Sometimes I think that I scoop up the ish of others and just stuff it in my own backpack, thinking that eventually I will unload it.
Dear Readers, I am going to try and do something a little different. I am going to attempt to....
Ready for this.....
wait for it....
wait for it.....
TRY TO UNLOAD IT ALL HERE IN A QUICK LIST...in no specific order, I am not even going to reread it for corrections. My thought process is, to unload it all here, and then move on to my next wonderful blog experience titled Journey to Christine.
Got it? I am not putting Lola to bed, you understand that she (I, we) is my pseudonym. A pseudonym (literally, "false name") is a name that a person (or, sometimes, a group) assumes for a particular purpose and that differs from his or her original orthonym (or "true name").** I just feel like it is time to use myself to introduce myself...before there was ever a Lola there was a Christine and this way we can be one happy united Blogger Extraordinaire. Forgive me for possibly repeating words in the list, understand that some of them were not even mine originally, just dumped in my backpack.
My shoulders are so tight...I hope this does it. Shoot, I missed you all. I hope you love where I'm going as much as I love where I'm going.
THE LIST
uncertainty
sadness
anger
pissed
confused
hurt
furious
weepy
unsure
unclear
low self esteem
deceit
scared
nervous
nightmaresque
sharp tongued
diva
mad
phony
cold
hate
sweaty
lost
purposeless
useless
aggravated
drunk
self hate
discontent
gossip
hurtful
mean
cruel
rude
immature
lies
tears
threats
loss of spirit
loss of self
loss of belief
loss of morals
incredulous
surprise
shock
hate
hate
dislike
morbid
unanswered questions
denial
rude
conflict
screaming
texting
facebooking
blogging
projecting
procrastination
denial
whining
bitching
losing
lying
hating
wishing
mournful
cheating
disrespect
lack of self respect
helpless
thoughtless
useless
faithless
loss
Ok, this list is longer than I thought and it is clear to me that this may not be a one blog Blog. Alright, as promised, I am not taking any of these emotions with me in my backpack or to my new blog. I guess the best way to respect (oh that's another one) these emotions is to revisit now and then, I think if another one comes up, I will jot it down, crumble it up and toss it. How's that?
I have not been this excited about a blog in a long time. I hope you come with me. I will not delete First Tuesday, but I must bid it adieu. I have undergone growth and I love this blog. I love this blog, I love these keys, I love this gift given to me, and the One who bestowed it. I love me, all parts, the pretty pink parts, the dark inky parts, the red seductiveness, the yellow laughter, the earthly green tones that make me the Woman that I am, that I will always be.
Hurry up! See you at Journey to Christine.
You get me, that's why I love you,
Lola (still)
**Thank you Wikipedia..my students can't use you, but I sure as hell do.
