51st Tuesday - Though I Barely Trust Me

Dear Readers:

I hardly know where to begin. I have to say, I do not have the internet at home, nor am I having much luck stealing a signal anymore. That is a poor excuse for being so sporadic, but truly...this is a weekly blog and I will pay more attention. Even if it means blogging at work more often (during my lunch of course, because I wouldn't DREAM of blogging during work, otherwise) or even at My Lovely's home.

I don't mean for this to look like a monthly blog. I really do love you guys, and I apologize. Today was the first time I was even able to view my last blog online, if you read it, than you know I did it on my FABULOUS NEW PHONE, while in the mountains.

I want to welcome back my Dear Readers, plus I'd like to welcome new ones. Dear New Reader, you know who you are--I'm sorry FB was being a real hole. Each time I tried to inbox my blog address, it asks me to complete one of those ridiculous TYPE THIS TO PROVE YOU ARE NOT A HACKER OR TELEMARKETER BULLCRAP, and then when I complied, I got some dang OTHER MEMBERS HAVE REPORTED THIS POST AS ABUSIVE. I don't know who did that and honestly I cannot spend anymore time on this, my Dear Readers may get restless with such talk. In any case, thanks for asking for my address, I hope you enjoy. If this is the first blog that you are reading, you may enjoy reading them in chronological order.

Ok. Enough of that. Dear Readers, as this month comes to an end, I'd like to call your attention to March 1, 2010. March 1, 2010 is the day after my 34th birthday. Please don't bellyache that I didn't tell you. Did I mention one of my Dear Readers, the really intelligent grad who recently started a great blog...has moved on to greater things, and I wish her well. Were you guys able to check out her blog? My name is Lola and I approve of this endorsement. I crack myself up, good thing because I cannot expect everyone else to.

HERE IS SOMETHING YOU DON'T NEED TO RETAIN BECAUSE ITS MEANINGLESS right now, I opened a Twitter. Before you start..yes, I know Facebook, My New Fabulous Phone and My Lack of Internet Access at Home has only taken me away from my Dear Readers, and YES I am aware that I don't have time to commit to something else. I do bite off more than I can chew, figuratively and literally, but I only started it to follow Tweets. I don't necessarily want to Tweet, but you know me well. Just to prove that I mean well, I only signed up the other night, and I have yet to do anything but one lousy little sentence. I didn't even mention it to My Lovely, that is how UNNECESSARY this information is. The amount of characters you are allocated are way to little for my thoughts. Imagine me tweeting an entire blog..I'd probably be fined by some group that's so important and selective that they only go by their initials.

Let's move on. LOL. I feel sooooo distracted today. This is what happens when I don't speak to you weekly. I have so much to say, so little time to say it in. Thank you for the Day After My Birthday wishes, I know I will feel the good vibes being sent my way. Of course this is another opportunity for you to send me lavish gifts. I'm proud to report that my Christmas List was pretty much fulfilled. I was so happy, I am still very happy. Special thanks to the following: My Lovely, Her Lovely Parents, a Dear Mentor, and a Dear Friend (Mama of the Cutest Lil Fantastic)for reading my blog and making this Christmas so great. I can't believe I actually got stuff from my list.

I was going to use this blog to write a nice Day After My Birthday Wishlist, but really, who the hell am I? I appreciate you for reading, that's good enough. Sometimes I fear that my persona online is going to take away from Lola Live, and there is a good reason for that. If I were to sit down and really take time to think of my favorite activities, the majority of them have to do with being somewhere in cyberspace. I like to think of myself as a relatively interesting person, but I think I'm getting to a place where I have to prioritize. I know this sounds like responsibility rearing its ugly head, but humor me for a second. I LOVE blogging, Facebook posting, texting and emailing. I am the type of person that has always preferred expressing myself through my writing, so the way the world is today is a great thing, however it could also be a disaster for me.

Anyone that has known for 10+ years would say that I was a quiet, reserved, shy person...back then. I never felt comfortable speaking up, I preferred to blend into the background. I always hid behind something, glasses, books, hair, weight...I was always hiding. My writing gave me a voice, but I still kept my thoughts (and my writings) to myself. As I matured, I would toe the line and share very little with teachers, who in turn would encourage me to do more. My first computer was in my 20's and there I found "friends" online. This was great, because I could be whomever I wanted. From there I found the Sims...where I could create whole families and relationships-something that I kind of lacked growing up.

Is this too heady for you? I'm sorry...I'm in a reflective mood-I think due to the Day After My Birthday. Where were we? The Sims took up so much of my time that I only left the computer go to work. I barely slept and took all of my meals in front of the pc. I guess I was not that hooked to the computer, because during this time I managed to get pregnant. Anyway...shortly thereafter I found something new that made me so happy...I fell in love with women and realized my true calling-Lesbian Extraordinaire. Lol! Actually, that realization pulled me further out of my shell...into happiness. I'm dragging. Sorry. I was ok for a while, but when I realized I was lacking something--I was not making time to write. I found MySpace (laugh if you want) and that worked for a while...plus the Sims. Don't forget the Sims. Eventually, I ended up on Facebook and eventually here.

Its almost to the point that I roll my eyes when the phone rings. Don't get me wrong, I am a people person, but sometimes I feel like I could revert back to my inner JD Salinger, and I don't want to do that.

I say all this to say, that as much as my true joy is writing, I cannot forget to interact in live time.

I will have loads of live time this weekend as My Lovely has a fabulous birthday planned for me. I actually have to have a little live time now, so we will speak soon.

I promise.

You get me, that's why I love you,

Lola

Greetings Dear Readers. Before I go any further, you should know that this blog is so short, it can't even rival a FB status update. The only reason for this mini blog is the fact that I'm doing it from my new phone. Blogging from a phone seems so wrong-like if Twitter was personified, it would be hella pissed. I have so much to say but I don't know if I have the thumb or battery power. My awesome new phone is a touch screen and has a full qwerty pad, but my fingers don't feel comfy enough to go that way or at least blog that way. Omg! I'm in a public place also occupied by a huge group of kids and their parents. They are so loud that my entire person feels molested. I'm not going to turn my blog into a bitch about forum, but be assured that if I wanted to, I have more than enough material. Readers, please be aware that this method of blogging leaves loads of space for error and no space for bells and whistles. If that's what you have the taste for, have a little bite and be on your merry way. NEWS: I signed up for Bikram Yoga and went three times! I only tried the one week trial. For my Dear Readers that are unaware bikram yoga is about 26 poses done in high tempertures, OMGWHYDONTTHEYCONTROLTHESEBADFREAKINKIDS??? about 100°, I think. It is super hot and super challenging. Ah ha, unlike some people's kids, my phone has a battery that runs out of charge and I have to catch up with you later. Now I know for sure why there are whole resorts that are children free.

You get me, that's why I love you,
Lola