Thursday, July 16, 2009

Nineteenth Tuesday Somewhere in America

Dear Readers,

I know its Thursday, days after the real nineteenth Tuesday, but you are here and that's what counts. Things are quite sporadic lately and while I keep coming up with things to talk to you about...here and there and quite frankly everywhere I run into situations that change my whole course of action.

I know what I promised you last blog and I'm good for it. Let's get one thing out in the open-I abhor email forwards. I don't care to thank St. So and So, nor do I care if forwarding an email will get me a cell phone credit, or do I think dancing babies and giggling sunflowers that wax poetic are worthy reads. Don't get me wrong, you are talking to someone who reads everything, including cereal boxes, to say the least. Er...four letter word, Lady...yes, yes, I'm getting to it. Over my vacation, during one nearly sleepless night in particular, I started thinking about love.

Pump the brakes! I know you feel like I am leading you on, I swear I'm not. I was thinking about things that indicate love, you know the verses...love is yada yada. I came up with many different ones, but naturally, I'm not going to preach you to death. Please don't click your mouse and get the hell out of my sight, humor me.

Here is a short list, (I promise, wink...)Love is...
1. Thinking about a sick child fervently to the point of nearly sickening yourself.
2. Contortionist style spooning that you know will help your sweetheart sleep.
3. Picking out the last crunchy fry for the person who loves it best.
4. Giving up your seat on the bus for someone who makes you think of your Grandma
5. Swiping someone through with your unlimited Metro, even though they might be the killer. (This means that you love enough to believe in everyone, see#8)
6. Letting go hurtful things said to you, and picking out the true meaning.
7. Tearing at graduations, funerals, and weddings.
8. Seeing the good in everyone, despite their ugly misunderstood wrappings.
9. Smiling at your kids.
10. Smiling at yourself.

Of course this list is in no particular order and as I read over it, it made more sense at 3am. I don't know how you feel about my list, and by no means am I saying that you have to feel the same way. This list is according to me, as everything that I blog. A note about #10, I ALWAYS, no matter how I am feeling-smile at myself when I pass a mirror. A smile feels good, and you can't just expect everyone to smile at you, excluding the metrocardless killer-but if you save a smile for you, it will make your day better, if even for that second in time.

Yesterday afternoon I had a good cry. Relax, I'm ok now, in fact, I was ok right after the cry. I was by myself (a rarity) and had some time (a never-ity)so I took advantage. As I cried, I thought that with the tears I was releasing myself from the stress and trappings of the day. I did not need to call anyone and vent. I was all I needed. At the end of the cry, I got up, changed my clothes, tossed in a load of laundry and got on with my life. Sometime after the cry, I passed a mirror and yes, I smiled. True it looked a little maniacal, but it was real and it felt like the sun after the rain.

Today I woke up feeling hopeful and thankful for my new day.

OMG..before I forget, I watched Doubt last night with Meryl Streep. Well. The movie was slow and kind of artsy, like a Calvin Klein commercial. It was good, but in a quiet way. Everyone played their parts so well...the movie was based on a play and ran just like one. I won't spoil the ending for you, but if you want to see some fine acting and can get by the symbolic Kleinesque wind, then this is the movie for you. One uber cool thing about the movie is the fact that it is in the Bronx, in an area very familiar to me. Funny how I didn't notice until the first 34min or so.

While I watched Doubt on my laptop, I had the television tuned and muted on Channel 9. I was waiting for Wendy Williams to start. This show, Magician's Secrets Revealed was on. What a load of crap. Alright, given, its cool to see finally that I've been right about optical illusions and whatnot-however, this masked dude who was revealing the "secrets" was SO TOO MUCH..omg, I don't know why he was being so dramatic, but I swear there is no way to be interested in the secrets revealed when there is so much dum dum duuuuuuuuuum going on. Wow, he was so over.

Que mas? I bet you like my little espanol for ya. One last thing, and its never over-while on vacation, I learned a few things about Florida.

1. You never know the time, the entire day felt like noon, then bedtime.
2. Walmart is the hot spot and you must go at least 3x weekly, once after 10pm.
3. You can overfeed a family of four at Golden Corral for under $20.
4. Floridian bugs are no joke; frogs can be small enough to hop off the head of a needle.
5. Flip flops are the ish.

Guess who has to get to work? Yeah, me. Sigh..oh to be independently wealthy.

You get me, that's why I love you.

Lola

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